A Beautiful Mess + Link-Up

Welcome, friends! To those of you who are mommas, I hope your Mother’s Day was filled with much love and appreciation for what you do in the lives of your children. What a privilege, calling and challenge to shape and mold a future generation. It is not a mission for the faint of heart and it never ends. The challenge can be incredibly difficult and yet one of the most rewarding blessing in this life.

If I’m honest, I would say that for many years now, I have shied away from Mother’s Day. On a good day I consider myself barely a momma. Sound strange? Well, there were several years in there that my daughter and I were estranged. It was less painful to just ignore things like Mother’s Day. I had gotten quite good at running from those mom identifiers. And when my daughter and I began to rebuild our relationship, I wasn’t sure how to re-engage in motherly things so I didn’t.

Enter 2017. The year that my world is turning upside down and things that have been out-of-place just might be coming back into order. Life is a beautiful mess but live it anyway, right?! One of those areas in my life is of course, motherhood. But…I’m excited to share what I have seen happening lately.

On Saturday, I attended a Beautiful Mess Banquet that my friend Kristi invited me to last week. It was at her church and most likely the church where we will land once we move into a new home.

mdb_bannerShe sent me a text and let me know about the event and to say another friend of ours would be speaking. Dana has been a friend of mine for years. Since we no longer teach together and we have both moved a farther distance from where we once were, we don’t see each other very often. But when we do, I am always changed by her warmth, truth, grace and love.

After leaving the teaching world, Dana became an author and speaker. She has spoken truth into my life for years as well as my daughter. She was my daughter’s 5th grade teacher as well as her 10th English teacher. She is a jewel and I count it a privilege to call her friend. You can find out more about her on her website, Filled with His Love.

I have to say the Mother’s Day Brunch was the sweetest time! Wonderful food prepared by the men of the church, fellowship with some of my dearest friends and then there were skits and laughter. Oh my! I left with a heart full! I could not image letting my heart be open that way again. But the Lord was working and showering grace upon grace on me. He had been preparing me earlier in the week and was softening my heart.

A few days prior to Saturday my daughter sent me this text message:

Whenever I’m sick, I wish you were here to bring me popsicles and hold my hair back.

At that moment, I wanted to leave work and take care of her but she lives in Oregon and I’m in Texas. But I completely had a picture in my head of the many times that actually did happen. That sweet little girl had plenty of migraines growing up and many days and nights she vomited until there was nothing left in her little body. I recalled the pictures she posted of herself on Facebook of that era and wanted to share her cuteness.

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First Grade or maybe Kindergarten

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Second or Third Grade

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Such a little sweetheart! So heartbreaking she suffered so much at such a young age. But she still had them in high school and even now.

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High School

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You’re still a mom when they’re 29 and almost 30 like this one. She’s still my little girl!

The Lord is not only warming my heart and repairing the relationship with my daughter. I believe He is moving in my heart in regards to teaching again. Was it a coincidence that I sat with teachers at my table on Saturday? Is it a coincidence that I cannot get education and the classroom off of my mind? What about the re-kindling of my heart that has said for years, “I’ll never teach again.” Reminds me when I said, “I never want to live in Sanger.” {And we are building a home in Sanger!}

So what is going on in this 2017? My heart of ice and stone is melting and being chiseled away. I find myself being more tender-hearted. I mean my eyes were filled with tears when I read my daughter’s text message and as I listened to Dana speak. On Sunday morning at church I found myself singing and tears again welling up in my eyes. Gosh, I’m doing the same thing as I write this post.

I was reminded of a Scripture from Ezekial where the Lord says these words of hope to the Isrealites:

I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. ~ Ezekiel 36:26

2017 may just be year when life falls back into place. Maybe I can stop running and start living. Prayers appreciated!

Well, friends, thank you so much for reading! Whitney and I are grateful for those who are linking up with us. Remember, this link up is not just style but any type of post. Can’t wait to read what your sharing this week!

Embrace and live your beautiful life!

Carrie ~ xoxo

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  • That's a lovely post. My daughter has bi polar and we are often at loggerheads! It hurts when we fall out. www.vanityandmestyle.com
    • I'm sorry for your difficult times. I can so relate! Thank you for stopping by today!
  • Oh I'm so happy for you both!! May this year be the best year yet! I am not estranged from my son but he is making some life choices that I'm just not happy about. Let's pray for each other's kids!
    • Beautiful suggestion!
    • I think that's a great idea Sheila! Thank you for suggesting it!
  • Here's to making the most of every minute of this beautiful mess called life.
  • Jodie Filogomo
    Such a meaningful post, Carrie. I hope it only gets better... Jodie www.jtouchofstyle.com
    • Thank you, Jodie! Me too!
  • Carrie, you have such a lovely spirit. Keep fighting for what matters and believe in your potential! Happy Belated Mother's Day! Susan xxoo
    • Thank you, Suzy! You are always encouraging. I hope your Mother's Day was lovely!
  • Such a beautiful post Carrie, Thanks for sharing. I have never felt like a good mother. I never really liked "mothering" but for some reason, my kids love me, call and text daily, and always want to spend time with me and their dad. I always ask myself "What did I ever do to deserve this?" because I feel so unworthy of it. I love the verse you shared at the end. Have you seen the Christian movie "The Case for Christ". The wife in that movie says this verse over and over again for her husband. It was one of the best Christian movies I've ever seen.
    • Thank you, Amy! Your comment was super encouraging. I haven't seen The Case for Christ yet but now I really want to! God is gracious and gives us so much more than we deserve, doesn't He?! Hope you have a great week.
  • Living on Cloud Nine
    Oh how I adore your heart dear friend! Your daughter is beautiful. I know it has been a tough year for you but God is good and these are no coincidences, he is at work leading you and his Grace allows you to grow, learn and show us your amazing, inspiring heart! Love you and will so miss your sweet face this week! virtual hugs! xo You are BEAUTIFUL!!
    • Sweetness! If I have any regrets about Toronto it is meeting you and the other ladies that I have yet to see face to face. One day!
  • Beautiful post!! Jaymie
  • So happy that life seems to be falling back into place for you, Carrie! I have never believed in coincidences. Someone once told me a coincidence is simply God tapping you on your shoulder. Sounds like He's gotten your attention. I will pray for you that He continues to guide you and direct your steps. God is good. Have a wonderful week! Mary http://marymurnane.com
    • Mary, your comment encouraged me and I appreciate that more than you know. Hope your week is as lovely as you!
  • I'm so happy that things are falling into place for you! You of all people deserve such happiness in your life! And thinking about teaching again?! I will be interested to see where this thought takes you :)
    • You are too sweet to me! Hugs!
  • I'm so glad that 2017 is becoming such a positive year for you Carrie! Your daughter is gorgeous and I'm glad that your relationship is improving. I feel like sometimes, especially on Mother's Day, that mother/daughter relationships can be really hard.
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